New Beginnings

It’s raining as I write this. A brisk rain of sparkling droplets bouncing off the terracotta tiles on the building across the street and pooling on the pavement far below. The steady waterfall lulls me and helps me seek answers from within.

I have had three dreams centered around babies in less than a week. In one I was pregnant and then had a beautiful baby boy, in the second I cuddled an infant girl dressed in pink, and last night I dreamt that my husband (my ex, Tim) and I were deciding if we should have a third child. Dreams of babies indicate a new beginning or rebirth within oneself. I believe I am receiving a strong message about my life and myself. It is why I made this journey.

As I spend time here, both alone and with others, I find that the person I would like to be is becoming clearer to me as is the person I do not wish to be. As an exercise, I’ve decided to list the top 10 things I wish and do not wish to be as a human being in order to help me focus on changes I need to make.

The person I want to be:

1. Kind
2. Compassionate
3. Giving
4. Loving
5. Loyal
6. Confident
7. Sensitive
8. Non-judgmental
9. Honest
10. A Good Listener

The person I do not wish to be:

1. Critical
2. Impatient
3. Negative
4. Naggy
5. A Complainer
6. Unkind
7. Arrogant
8. Controlling
9. Demanding
10. Selfish

I will print this list out and place it somewhere I will see it each day as a reminder of what I am working toward. I am making a commitment to myself and I ask the Universe and La Santa for the strength to become the person I know I can be. This will be my rebirth.